I miss you more

I miss you,
I miss you more than word shows.
I love you,
I love you more than my heart shows.

I miss you like crazy.

Post - Grandmas

Dear God..

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once againThere's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleepsAnd all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once againSome search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste awayI found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish waysAnd how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fadeA lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

It's something more than saying "I miss you"

You never let us know it, you never let it show.
Be cos you love us and obviously there's so much more left to say.
If you were with us today, face to face.

I never know I could hurt like this.
And everyday life goes on like..
I wish I could talk to you for awhile.
I wish I could find a way try not to cry.

Soon, you reached a better place.
Still I will give the whole world to see your face.
And I'm bragging next to you.
It feels like you gone too soon.
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye.

You never got the chance to see how good I've done.
I remember when u used to tuck me in at night.
I thought you were so strong that you can make it through whatever.
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever.


I miss you, dearest grandma.

1 year

Suck! I have been so sick for the previous few days. My body has been aching so badly, and i longs for my bed.

6 april, the day my grandma passed away. Its 2010. Its been 1 year ever since grandma passed away. There is a wake held opp my block. It reminds me so much of my grandma. The chanting. The praying. The burning. Everything. During that few days, i tend to peeek out to my window to look at the wake just to hold the memory of my grandma. I know i will never see her again. No matter how badly i wanted. Its been 365 days. But yet, things still holds dearly in my heart.

I miss you so much, grandma.

What am i thinking

While I am still mourning the loss of the person on whom I have bestowed my dearest love, I am rejoicing to meet you behind the veil. Your death left a heartache no one could heal, but your love left a memory no one could ever steal. You still cross my mind every now and then. And there are so many things that I wanna share with you. I really miss you. And your smile, which I have loved long since and lost awhile.

If I could just see you, everything will be alright. If I’d see you this darkness will turn to light.
And I will walk on water. And you will catch me if I fall. And I will get lost into your eyes. And everything will be alright. I know everything is alright.

Shagged?

Dear blog,

I have started my school while some of my classmates are still having ur holidays. Be cos
I started my final year project first! (FYP) So shitty. Monday-Thurs: 830am-6pm.
Fri: 830am-530pm. Im seeing the freaking computer for more than 8 hours PER DAY! Its
only 4 days since the start of school, and Im already counting down the weeks. After 3 months of
FYP, Im going to have 3 months of attachment. I wonder what company I will be attached to.
Shit! Hmm, Sat is coming. Im SO looking forward to it. Cos Im SHITTY tired! (:

Im having dinner with george tonight, cos home is not cooking as parents is going to younger
sister school for parents meeting session. WTH?!

Well, yesterday mommy was searching her cupboard for dont know what thing, when she took out a file from her messy cupboard. The file contains GRANDMA (Mom's Mother) picture with all grandma's funeral stuffs inside. Mommy look at her picture for a very long time. I know for that moment of time, she is VERY VERY UPSET and I know she MISS HER VERY VERY MUCH. Well, what can i say? I cant change the fact that she is gone. I still have flashback whenever we have gathering with her around.

I FREAKING MISS GRANDMA! ):

Its been a while...

Ok, let me settle down to blog...

Today have to hand up my school SACP Project, and I really have to push all my team mates. They have bloody waste my time.

Chinese New Year its coming. I dont know its a joyful or upset occassion for us. Joyful because its CHINESE NEW YEAR! Upset because both is gone from our life.

Its been less than 1 month since ah ma is gone. Everything is still in my mind. All the good and bad. I dont like seeing her suffer, it makes me more upset seeing her suffer at this age. I dont care what bad she have done in the past. Its the past. She is my ah ma. I love you so much. No longer can I help her massage her legs nor hands. I miss her so much... This is life. Love it and take it or get away with it.

My Bloody school atachment result will be out next week probably? Hmm, fcuk!