Dream

EVERYBODY! This is how the dream comes by:

There was a meeting at Uncle's house. Eveyone was there including grandma. She was sitting at her rocking chair. I could see how beautifully she wore, and I could see the make up on her face.
She was talking to everyone of us using her language. She says "How are you all? I miss you all so much. If possible this weekend come and visit me. When u all have arrive, pls call out for me so i know u all have come. For the adults jus bring food. I want to eat pa ming, and fa gao. Children bring fruits. Dont burn anymore things for me. Be cos i have too much." Than she disappear in my dream. All of this things jus happen so quickly.

Why mus she go so quickly. I mis you!

Success

Sat wedding was a successful. Have lots of photo & FUN! But most of us cried when LQ's give her speech. Be cos we hated so much that grandma cant attend the wedding.

Started to stay at our new place be cos house is on reovation starting from today.

Dear Lord,
Pls bless the renovation is a success. Pls give our family wisdom and guide us through this tough jourey. Lord, I want to give my praise to u. Thank you Lord for guiding us through the last few months and even now. Bless us to hav a wonderful road ahead once the renovation is done.
Amen

Rest

Today I slept quite alot. Reason be cos Im sick. Had a bad flu, sore throat. George is also sick. Sore throat and flu. I think I ate too much durians that day. I finish it all by myself. Hohoho...!!

Tomo will be sifting house. Dad's will be bringing 2 of his workers tomo to our place to help us shift house. But the worst thing is, we will be shifting all the stuffs from East side to West side be cos my uncle's factory will be at TUAS!!! Wahahahah!!

Miss Grandma.

Thoughts, Moments.

Today working from 8am-6pm cos Im not running any machine. But if Im running a machine will be working form 8am-8pm, like yesterday. Had sorting of parts today basically for 9 hours. During that 9 hours, memories of grandma came to my mind again. I just simply could not believe it how our 3 families could take the pain/sadness.

Today, is her birthday. I long to wish her happy birthday yet I didnt did it when she's here. When she's here, I didnt even bothered to even look at her when she is with us, but I know her presence. Till today, I didnt have a chance to say to her "Ah ma, Happy birthday!" Our family went to pray grandma on Sunday. A little becos Mommy dreamt about Ah ma. Ah ma was telling mommy that she miss eating "Fa Gau & Gua." Mommy went to buy for Ah ma the 2 after we move some of our things to uncle's factory. She walk the entire market to get Ah ma her food. We went to pray, upon seeing ah ma's photo, tears startes to roll in my eyes. In my heart I say "Ah ma we bought u ur food. Enjoy your food. How r u? R u fine? R u enjoying urself? Lastly happy birthday ah ma!" Im really very sad though it has pass 5 months. Its like only yesterday. Everything jus pass so quickly. I hate to stop missing her but I cant. I have yet to dream of Ah ma. Almost everyone had. I know one day will be my turn cos Ah ma will enter everyone's dream slowly.

This coming Sunday, moving of almost everything to uncle's factory. Renovating soon. Found a place to stay. Not convenient. But what can I do. Jus endure for 1.5 months.

You never know how much I love you. You never know how much I miss you. You never know how guilty I am now when I didnt cherish u in the past. You never know how much I wish to dream of u. You never know how much I wish I could turn back the time when u were here, and not fighting our ur beloved rocking chair. You never know how much I wish to see u now. You never know I will never forget you. You never know all this happy memories will stay in my heart.

I love you, Ah ma!!! I love you, Ah ma!!!
Happy Birthday, Ah ma!!! Happy Birthday, Ah ma!!!

Result...

Today is the day when I got my results for my Year 2 Sem 1. Was quite satisfied.

Wed jus came back with george from oversea. Did enjoy myself, went mountain climbing, tasting of food, and shopping. Didnt really spent lots of money be cos mostly George's Sis paid for us.

Shifting house during mid oct as our house will be renovating for a month plus. Will have a beatiful house by than be cos mommy allow me to choose the decoration in my room like cupboad, wall color etc. This renovation cost quite a bomb. And the place we are shifting to is not convenient for me, younger sis, and george to go to work and sch.

Ytd went to see tiles and home stuffs like toilet bowl, sink, water tap, water heater etc. Place deposit already. Cost a bomb too.

Our house has lots of boxes piling high up. Jus be cos we need to shift. Luckily Dad's uncle have a place for us to put our stuffs (:

Beloved granny has gone for quite a long time. But whenever I thought of her there will be tears in my eye. I miss her so much. She has yet to come to my dream. She has enter to LeeQin, ZhengXin, XJ dreams but not mine. How has she been? Is she good? Does she need anymore notes from us? Is she enjoying herself? This is all the question mark that has been floating inside my head for a long time.

LeeQin wedding we will not be seeing granny. This is what saddens us alot. I couldnt jus believe how our 3 families could endure all this. We take a step at a time to put all this memories in our heart. As for Jonas and Jovan, they will understand when they grew up. Ah ma, I love you always.

LQ's wedding

Got a call from LF jie jie about the plan during LQ's jie jie wedding. Morning to uncle's house, than to the church, go back to uncle's house to pray grandma.

The wedding dinner at night, grandma wouldnt be there. Its a loss. I remember vivdly durnig ZX's gor gor wedding, grandma's smile on her face. She was so happy. But today, she will not be there. Though she will stay forever in our heart, but the sight of her since like yesterday.

I could not forget the time she was in hospital.
I could not forget the time she came to our house to stay.
I could not forget the time she came and we bought her out to eat.
I could not forget the time she leaves the best food for us.
I could not forget the time i use to snatch her rocking chair, & she just allow me to sit.
I could not forget the time when she call my name during CNY to give me red packet.
I could not forget the time when she ask me where is her spec.
I could not forget the time when I held her hands walk her to the lift.
I could not forget the time when she comb her hair using her favourite blue gel.

I just could not forget the time I used to spent with her.
Why are u gone? I keep questioning myself.

6th Aug

Today 31st July, end of the month. 6 more days, is grandma 4th month death annivesary. Days passed so quickly, its just like yesterday since grandma is gone. I really really really miss her so much. Nothing can describe the love and misses in my heart. I miss her more than words describe. I miss her more than yesterday. I miss her more than anything else in the world.

Mid-Aug having family gathering dinner or lunch is yet to decide. I believe Grandma will be with us.

Going Miri (Malaysia) at Sep 16!
YUPPEI!!