Without you.

I can't forget this morning
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows, yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know
I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore

Please come back will you?

The time will come

Dear blog,

When Im on the way to school, I saw someone, that someone reminds me so much of my grandma. That someone board the bus, head full of big bag of vegetables. She gave her heart, to her family like how my grandma did.

I never have any regrets in my life, only for one. The one that I can never undo. The one that I regreted so deeply in my heart. The one that I never see her having a impact in my life. The one that leaves and I know she will never come back.

The tears start to tear in my eyes. I miss her since 6 Apr. I wanted so much to see her. But I know I will never comes true.

A few days more to Christmas. A celebration waiting for us. I want to share the joy with you. But can you feel it? I want to share the new year joy with you. But can you feel it?

I promise I will treat you better.
I promise whatever I do, I will think of you.
I promise I will hold your hands and let you feel secure.
I promise everything, everything just for you to be back.

Please come back, will you?

PS: I miss you terribly, grandma.

I miss you more

I miss you,
I miss you more than word shows.
I love you,
I love you more than my heart shows.

I miss you like crazy.

Post - Grandmas

Dear God..

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once againThere's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleepsAnd all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once againSome search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste awayI found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish waysAnd how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fadeA lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

It's something more than saying "I miss you"

You never let us know it, you never let it show.
Be cos you love us and obviously there's so much more left to say.
If you were with us today, face to face.

I never know I could hurt like this.
And everyday life goes on like..
I wish I could talk to you for awhile.
I wish I could find a way try not to cry.

Soon, you reached a better place.
Still I will give the whole world to see your face.
And I'm bragging next to you.
It feels like you gone too soon.
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye.

You never got the chance to see how good I've done.
I remember when u used to tuck me in at night.
I thought you were so strong that you can make it through whatever.
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever.


I miss you, dearest grandma.

1 year

Suck! I have been so sick for the previous few days. My body has been aching so badly, and i longs for my bed.

6 april, the day my grandma passed away. Its 2010. Its been 1 year ever since grandma passed away. There is a wake held opp my block. It reminds me so much of my grandma. The chanting. The praying. The burning. Everything. During that few days, i tend to peeek out to my window to look at the wake just to hold the memory of my grandma. I know i will never see her again. No matter how badly i wanted. Its been 365 days. But yet, things still holds dearly in my heart.

I miss you so much, grandma.

What am i thinking

While I am still mourning the loss of the person on whom I have bestowed my dearest love, I am rejoicing to meet you behind the veil. Your death left a heartache no one could heal, but your love left a memory no one could ever steal. You still cross my mind every now and then. And there are so many things that I wanna share with you. I really miss you. And your smile, which I have loved long since and lost awhile.

If I could just see you, everything will be alright. If I’d see you this darkness will turn to light.
And I will walk on water. And you will catch me if I fall. And I will get lost into your eyes. And everything will be alright. I know everything is alright.